Join “Contest The Best Picture of Me”

This is my first time ever join contest. Dah la masa tulis ni pukul 5.12am. jodoh kita la kot nak jumpa waktu-waktu macam ni. Dah la esok ada final paper. tak sedar diri betul!

anyway, nak join contest ni kena la start small, mana tau boleh menang kan?

well, in this contest, empunya blog : Engku Sofea suruh upload satu own favourite picture yang solo. Masa terdetik nak join terfikir “aku ni ada ke gambar sorang?”. hmmm lepas buka folder satu-satu, finally jumpa la jugak gambar sorang-sorang. okay dah boleh sengih sikit sekarang!

Hi name is Azura and my virtual name is Azura Dushku. (i’ll surely will be laughing at myself after 5 years seeing me writing this at the age of 21 and thinking what’s in mind at that time)

what makes me think that this picture is so special?

well, actually takde lah best mana pun cuma masa ni, i really felt special bila ada orang sponsor ticket untuk tengok konsert Air Supply Live in KL Convention Centre. Gambar ni diambil lepas concert dan boleh nampakkan kat situ muka puas tak ingat? kan? kan? *okay mungkin ekspresi muka tak berapa nak meyakinkan tapi percayalah, i was extremely happy at that night*

I wasn’t really at my best outfit, tapi itu lah paling selesa buat masa tu due to agak rushing bersiap. oh, ya betul sangkaan anda (walaupun untuk yang tidak bersangka) tudung itu memang senget sejak dari awal lagi dan takde orang pun baik hati untuk tegur “hey you, tudung you senget, fesyen tudung senget-senget tak hit lagi masa ni”  adoi. Pasrah. bila dah tengok gambar besar-besar kat laptop baru perasan. tapi takpelah, ada hikmah la tu. kan? mungkin menang ke kan?  hehe

the night was a blast, a moment of lifetime yang tak akan dapat ditukar ganti dengan wang ringgit.

and for this i tag ella si purple, catz the bomb! andAsyraf penuh bedazzle

sekian,

terima kasih.

Azuradushku

 

Feelings of Emptiness is A New Friend

i feel so empty. i feel so alone.


all i can feel is nothing.


i was at the top last few weeks and today, i feel like i’m drown in the deepest sea.
its hard for me to reach the surface.


what is wrong with me?


i’m going to sit for my final examination tomorrow morning at 9am. i haven’t finished my readings and i can feel that half of is giving up and another half is just too weak to lift me up.


that is why i’m here, writing my heart out. i do not want to be here but i don’t know the place where i belong to. i stuck in my own creation of imagination. i cant go out. i want to be free. i forgot the feelings of being free. freedom that has lost me, i can’t seem to find my way back.


it’s too dark.


i wish there could at least a light to help me to go through.

Allah itu Maha Hebat

i can only write bila hati tengah gundah gulana. semenjak dua tiga menjak ni selalu sangat happy sampai tak dapat nak luahkan dengan kata-kata.


dear diary,


i’m so happy these days. people around has been so nice to me. Allah has loaded me with lots of opportunities. i’m being so grateful for that. tapi aku selalu lupa. aku selalu leka, aku selalu terlena dalam mimpi-mimpi indah dunia. Oh Tuhan, Maafkan aku! when i’m happy i tend to forget you. i havent spend so much time for ‘God-Me Quality time’ like i used to. i missed You. Ya Allah, buka kan lah hatiku dan tetapkan lah imanku, sentiasalah pelihara diriku.


the other day, kau turunkan ujian yang maha hebat untukku. terlalu berat sampaikan aku rasa tak tertanggung. penuh sarat jiwa, terasa sesak. tapi itulah, kebaikan sentiasa dibalas dengan kebaikan. hanya dengan satu perkara kecil, kau balas dengan berganda-ganda perkara baik yang aku tak tersangka. terima kasih Ya Allah!


kepada teman-teman yang membaca,


lakukanlah perkara yang baik walaupun sekecil kuman, balasannya kadang-kadang tak tercapai oleh akal bila memikirkan.


mungkin nasihat macam ni kita dah selalu dengarkan?


tapi adakah kita betul-betul memahami dan menghayatinya?

I Dream of

i dream of having a restaurant that offers comfort food for everyone at a very affordable price. i want people to come to my place to enjoy the food with their loved ones. i would love to own one a day. big profits is not my priority.

my restaurant will offers massive burgers loaded with home made fries, steaks and food at my restaurant will come in big portion just like what you can see on Man Vs Food series, Chilli’s, That Little Gerai in AU5 and some other place that i’ve yet to discover.

ill be happy if i can make people happy just by eating my cooking.

wouldn’t it be great?

biarlah

its okay if you choose to treat me this way. its okay too if you decide to go your way because one day what is exactly how i felt today will return to back to you. i admit my mistakes but not you. i do not want to be cruel, i do not want to say things that can hurt you. let me just keep it with me because after all the truth will reveal itself.