OMG!

MY LAST POST WAS ON 2013!

IT HAS BEEN FIVE FREAKING YEARS SINCE I LAST POSTED!

I cannot wait to start blogging again!

of all crazy final week

hi Kitty!

one paper down and i have another 6 papers to go. its been a crazy semester as compared to last the semester.. for the past few weeks, i banyak spend time dengan Dila. a good friend of mine since we were destinied to become roomate back in Nilai. Dila has replaced the feeling of  " i need a friend" during matriculation.

i managed to paksa dila untuk buatkan wedding checklist sebab i am too lazy to do it and i do not have much time sebab i have two decentralized exams masa study week which is not fair sbb we didnt get that one week break after 15 weeks of crazy ups and down.

apart from that, my sister got ipad mini for no reason. so, we both when a litle bit crazy with the pretty camera compared to ipod 4. i wanted to put on some of the photos tapi susah pulak nak guna ipad mini. will blog from my laptop soon!

Cerita Study ke Cerita Kahwin?

Aku rasa macam dah banyak kali je cerita nak grad semester ni. Tp tu lah, macam takut la pulak kalau kantoi apa-apa subject semester ni. Lecturer semua killer and apa yang aku boleh cakap aku memang takut sangat-sangat nak habiskan semester ni and nak tunggu result day. Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan. Aku tak tau nak habaq macam mana perasaan yang aku rasa sekarang. Resah, gelisah semua pun ada. Aku rasa mungkin sebab aku ni suka sangat tangguh kerja and bila eventhing dah bundle up, baru terhegeh-hegeh nak start. Tapi tu la, semester ni rasa macam lose hope, serious. Aku rasa macam nak quit, continue another semester. Tapi aku tak sanggup nak hadap semua tu lagi.

Bila baca entry aku yang lepas-lepas semuanya Nampak macam aku ni jenis yang depressed je setiap masa. Bila aku mula menulis baru aku sedar aku ni depressed rupanya. Haha.. tapi in reality, I hardly see or experience any signs of depression. Sebab aku tak tau apa yang aku nak depressed kan. Cuma aku tau antara punca aku depressed ialah sebab yang lain dan tak bukan ialah sebab aku malas. Serious, aku malas sampai tahap yang malas tak tau nak cakap. Hahaha! Ok gelak sorang sorang. Pathetic!

Cuma aku perasan, muka aku mcm glowing.. haha perasan sendiri je takde orang tegur pun muka aku glowing ke apa, bila aku buka cerita pasal kahwin. Alhamdulillah, rezeki tu memang tak putus-putus sejak tunang. Almost all wedding matters, ada je yang hulur tangan nak bantu. Terharu sangat-sangat. Macam tak percaya je. What did I do to deserve all this? Apa-apa pun, syukur Alhamdulillah.

Lepasni, aku dah kena start entry yang detail untuk satu-satu perkara and must siapkan wedding checklist. Gonna get busy menjelang final exams ni. Hopefully ni la kali terakhir aku amik exam sebagai undergraduate. Aminn…

Best few moments during my early days in Nilai

Dear Kitty,

Rasa macam baru semalam menangis sorang-sorang dekat katil double decker belah bawah dekat Nilai, hari pertama register untuk matriculation UIA. Semua orang asing, some of the girls in my room dah start mingle with one another. Aku cuma mampu pandang sepi sebab aku terasa sangat I dont belong here. Then there were this girl, Fara, a sweet girl cakap hai, and asking me whether aku okay ke tak. Dia cuma, don't worry nanti kita semua will be okay. I didn't remember what I said to her but all I remember is that aku tidur sampai masa committee taaruf menjerit dekat speaker suruh sembahyang den turun berkumpul.

Since aku macam lost dengan baru bangun tidur muka lepas nangis, ada another girl, Hidayah duduk dekat hujung kaki katil kejutkan "anak dara... jom bangun nanti tinggal asar".

These two girls had given me so much that word can't describe for the first week in Nilai. But Dayah left us so early sebab dia decide untuk jadi cikgu and keluar dari UIA. Tapi pertemuan sekejap tu dengan Dayah makes her so special. She didnt have any social network account and my phone tak boleh on and she is among the girl whom i know takde handphone at the age of 18.

Whereever you are now Dayah, May Allah bless you for what you have made me into. Can never replace someone like you. For once the kind of friendship yang i feel so pure, takde pura pura. Just you and me and our friendship. Im getting married soon my dear friend. I really want you to be at my wedding.

Fara, we both had something special in friendship. But maybe, we both are happy with the way we lived now, and im so happy everytime we met we can have that short conversation. I'm just happy like that and i am happy for u too!

May Allah bless you girls!

Wedding Checklist Bride to Be 2013

Date and Venue for Nikah & Reception: CONFIRMED

Legal Documents

Kursus Kahwin 

Borang kebenaran nikah              

Test HIV  

Jurunikah

Hantaran for the Bride

Barang Kemas

Perfume

Make up n Facial set

Kain pasang

Chocolates

Hantaran for the Groom
Cincin
Jam
Baju Kemeja

Perfume

Facial set
Chocolate
Cakes

Outfit 

Bride

Nikah

1.      Baju Nikah

2.      Tudung Nikah

3.      Veil Nikah

4.      Kasut Nikah

Resepsi

1.      Baju Resepsi

2.      Tudung Resepsi

3.      Veil Resepsi

Groom

Nikah

1.      Baju Melayu

2.      Sampin

3.      Kasut

4.      Songkok 

Resepsi

1.      Suit

2.      Tie

Pelamin

 Tunggu confirmation to meet up with vendor

Make Up

Nikah & Resepsi: Kena cari masa untuk jumpa and discuss

Official Photographer (OP)

Nikah 

Resepsi

Post Wedding

Official Videographer (OV)

Nikah

Resepsi

Hand Bouquet

Nikah

Sanding

Catering

Nikah:  kena finalize menu

Resepsi

Candy Buffet

Items: ??

Doorgift
Balang Kaca

Wedding Card & Bunting

Belum fikir lagi..HAHA

 Mostly ideas dah ada, macam katering tu kena meet up before our final payment to discuss on the selections of menu. Door gift dah ada idea tinggal nak beli bekas kaca tu, and dah tahu nak beli kat mana. cuma tak menyempat lagi nak sampai kat sana tu. 

OP and OV tu kena tunggu my fiance untuk uruskan, sbb he's the best! hihi

what else? hmmm.... oh candy buffet tu sebab instead of bagi goodies bag to tetamu yang kecik and to divert attention sekejap sementara orang beratur untuk makanan so at least tetamu boleh la dapat sweet treats sikit.

and mak dah start tanya pasal wedding cards. duhh.. takde masa nak fikir nak print dekat siap. design dah ada dalam kepala but have yet nak terjemahkan. hehe

tu la, nak kahwin right after habis belajar.. kan dah pening kopala. hahaha..

sekian. 

Empty

I feel so empty,
Like there's no more lights in the city,

I feel so empty,
Until the shadows wouldn't come by me,

I feel so empty,
My heart can hardly breath,

I feel so empty,
I wish I could be running free,
Cause life have never been easy,
Running away seem the best possible be,

What is it left for me?


Dushkuat

It's going to be a delicately rough phase

I am going to finish my degree soon.  Can’t believe that I actually will be surviving 4 years of ups and downs, sweats and tears in studies, friendship and some other stuff related to studying soon!  I cannot wait to be free again.

here's a story about today,

Earlier this morning, I received a phone call regarding my internship placement. I was extremely down sebab ada this one organization rejected my application due to no more vacancies available for interns sbb hantar application lambat. I was quite desperate actually because I’m running out of time to report to my lecturer regarding my internship placement. I kept on avoiding my lecturer everytime he wanted to see me.

 Lepas dapat news kena reject lagi la kan, and so since I was deperate, I called another organization ni to make a follow up. Lagi sedih bila dapat tau rupanya the email I sent her for the past few days tak masuk dalam inbox dia rupanya. Cepat-cepat bukak laptop hantar sekali lagi. After about 10 to 15 minutes tiba-tiba dapat email notification. Nervous gila nak bukak, i couldn't afford to have another rejection in one day. sekali.... Wohooo lega! Well, I guess whoever yang apply for that organization surely dapat sebab diorang ni NGO so they prefer interns and voluntarily-based employee. So that lucky organization who’s going  to have me as part of their organization is MERCY Malaysia yaw! Well, I was at the extreme edge of sadness but the next thing I know, I am back on the top!

Therefore, I am really looking forward for June to start my intern and… got to start peningkan diri about my wedding preparation!

Tu lah, nak kahwin right after graduation so kena la biasakan diri multi-tasking kan!

Wedding Checklist (Major things to think about)

1.       Venue

a.       Nikah  : Masjid Al Falah, USJ 9 (proposed place sahaja, I have yet to meet the PIC to get the confirmation)

b.      Reception: Done (Deposit Paid, so consider done and got to start pening about the money to pay the balance L)

2.       Attire

a.       Nikah:  Bride  (done), groom (done)

b.      Reception: Bride (done)

3.       Theme

a.       Nikah: takde tema for both sides

b.      Reception: Mint Green + Off White

Hantaran semua tu later la, too lazy to write about it but we have already bought some. Berdebar je everytime tengok hantaran tu.

I cannot believe myself either nak kahwin this early!

Nope, mak and abah has never said anything about suruh kahwin ke apa and neither his family too. Things just happened which I believed happened for a reason. Well, of course I’m excited! I just don’t know what is the appropriate reaction I should deliver.

Will definitely mumble about my wedding preparation but I have no fantasies about my wedding day yet! Lol!!

see you soon Kitties!

New Chapter

I’ve abandoned you for quite sometimes already. I thought I wanted to give up on you but I know I just can’t. I need someone who completely listens without responding.  Anyway, let me begin with the good news about me.

Alhamdulillah, I’ve got engaged with the one who has been my sweetheart since I was 17. Who knows the so called puppy love will end up so beautifully like this. Insha Allah, with Allah’s will and both of our families blessings, my fiancé and I will ties the knot by end of the year. The decision was quite drastic I can say. I know one day, he and I will get together but never would have imagined to settle down so quickly like this. I am not against early marriage but I always believe that women these days should at least have stable economic before jumps to the marriage life. Well, I this that’s what has been written for me and I will accept it. 

It’s quite challenging actually to prepare for your big day without having stable economics (as for my part), I’m not worry about my fiancé though cause he is now working as a permanent staff at Shangri La. However, insha Allah everything will be runs smoothly. As for now, I’m preparing myself with knowledge and the art of marriage. Without good knowledge on marriage, conflicts that occur will hardly resolve.

So now I’m in the midst of preparing for my big day and I couldn’t be more excited about anything else. On top of that, I have just committed to another commitment. Well, it’s about time in testing your capabilities and how well you can handle yourself working under pressure. Okay, I was selected to be become the campus DJ. I know, what’s up of being a campus deejay right? There’s nothing much to brag about being the campus deejay. Like, who listens to their campus radio anyway? But… that doesn’t concerns me much. What matters to me most is how well is my articulations in delivering the subject matter.

 I got nervous during my first show and its normal I think when we got confuse with which grammar or verb or vocab to use. Lol! English is not my mother tongue so yeah… that’s basically runs on the first show. I will definitely come back and improve myself from time to time.  

So that’s what basically my life so far. Gonna talk about my wedding preparation soon!