stronger than yesterday

I have a week rest before my first paper for final exams started. I’m having difficulties to study arabic cause i am a slow learner when it comes to arabic language. Arabic language is not like other languages. i’m gonna need someone to tutor me and i have already have some one dalam kepala.

since i have a week off so i occupied myself with this activitiesss

AT MADMONKEYZ CLIMBING GYM, WANGSA MAJU

 

First step: register yourself by filled in all the details required.

Second Step: take a picture of yourself and your good friend before you get started.

Third step: WALLLAAAAAA!

i spent the whole day at Madmonkeyz Climbing gym starting from 3pm-11pm. its a great place to release all the stress and challenge yourself at the same time.

kau lagi tapi aku masih tak jemu

summarization of what Ramadhan and I did the other day. the journey started when Ramadhan was advised to get a day off since his Pak Long was hospitalized in Seremban and he was a bit cranky the day before so that's why he asked me out. he came over to pick me at my Mahallah around 2pm when i was having my lunch at that time. then, we went to visit his Pak Chu in Gleaneagles. Pak Chu tengah buat chemotherapy masa kitorang sampai.

we spend 12 hours together. heck!

masa ni still confused nak pergi via Jelatek or Ampang, tapi sempaaat snap gambar lagi

Romie and Pak Chu, lepas Pak Chu done with his treatment. Pak Chu bawak makan I yu ols!

Venue: Aladdin Restaurant, next to Flamingo Hotel, Ampang

then we went back to UIA around 6.30pm after being stuck in a traffic jam, then nak pergi kolam air panas tak jumpa tempat, nak pergi taman rama-rama tak jumpa pintu masuk so we ended up pergi talk in UIA. after talk finished, remember i was supposedly to stay on campus over the weekend tapi tak jadi since Ramadhan lapar and i thought of bring him over makan pecel tapi kedai tu dah tutup and we ended up pergi Ampang to satisfy the desire for Om Burger. 

Candid!

hodoh betul muka kauuuuuu makan tak ingat dunia. kiri kanan makanan.

Terkejut, Mengejut dan Dikejutkan

sorry kualiti gambar macam ape je. tak bawak camera balik campus so terpaksa guna camera kat laptop. Thank you Raja, Tikah, Tiqa and Dila. <3

homesick

I have nothing much to ramble these days except for the anger i just spilled yesterday. but the anger is actually not meant to anyone but me. i tried to be denial, trying to blame someone so hardly but the thing is i have problem with my own self and trying to deny the fact that i am depressed. i hate this feelings i have nowww!

but lets just focus on good things that happened to me these past few days.

I’ve been almost completely satisfied with my current life and I’ve found few things that satisfied me. For example this week I realized that I clean my room less than an hour. I’ve been delaying to clean my room for days and I just realized that cleaning the room is not that difficult. I managed to clean all the ‘rambut gugur’ in the room, rambut yang terbang dari compartment sebelah, rambut kawan-kawan yang datang bertandang and mine included. Obviously lega sangat sebab bilik dah kemas and bersih, this week dah la all the assignments due kalau dengan bilik sepah segala mestilah lagi serabut. My planned to stay in the room for the whole weekend tak jadi because last Thursday night lepas pergi talk, Ramadhan and I decided nak pergi makan and that time dah lebih kurang 11.30pm and I thought of bringing him to eat pecel, sekali tutup. Nak patah balik UIA pak guard dah start tahan kereta, sah sah la kalau nak masuk kena saman RM50 so tak jadi balik UIA we headed to Ampang for the famous OM burger. Ramadhan had his Oblong ayam and mine oblong kambing. Since Ramadhan have to work the next day and its already late and his going to stay at his uncle’s house at Melawati so I had to call Wa to pick me up at Ampang. Around 1.30am macam tu Wa sampai.

 

That’s the whole story to explain why I had to cancel my plan to stay in campus on the weekend.

dan aku

kalau aku rungkai satu-satu mau engkau sakit jiwa kerana tekanan hebat yang kau tak mampu terima. kata-kata aku lebih pedas dari dari sesiapa pun yang pernah engkau berkecil hati kerana kata-kata mereka. aku pun sekadar manusia biasa yang tak pernah lari dari perasaan marah. tapi aku marah bersebab dan aku cuba untuk tahan kemarahan aku sebab aku tahu musim peperiksaan akhir semester akan berlangsung tak lama lagi. tapi perasaan ni aku dah tak boleh kawal lagi. maafkan aku kalau aku berjauhan. hati aku terlalu sakit untuk menerima hakikat. biarkan aku sendirian. mungkin di hening subuh aku akan terima kekesalan. kata maaf tak perlu diucapkan kerana maaf hanyalah kata-kata yang boleh dikitar semula. jadi adalah lebih baik jika terus berdiam tanpa bermasam muka mahupun menjeling sesama sendiri. kerana marah itu juga buta. buta dalam menilai segala kebaikan yang kau pernah taburkan dulu. aku tak mahu kerana turutkan marah aku lupa akan segala kebaikan yang pernah kau beri dulu.

 

dan aku tak mahu aku terus terlupa yang aku ini bertuhan. orang yang bertuhan percaya Tuhannya tak pernah mengajar umatnya terus menyimpan dendam.

HAPPY 21st and 25th, 2011

 

the girl who just turn 21 on February 26th, 2011. she was flattered and overwhelmed by all the birthday wishes she received from people who remembered her big day. she’s not looking forward for any birthday celebration but when these people choose to celebrate her birthday, she lost her words. she can only being so thankful to Allah and everyone for giving her the chance to experience such a wonderful moments on her birthday.

she loves carbonara spaghetti at Gardens. so far, that’s the only dish yang dia akan order everytime pergi sana.

 

 

 

desserts that keeps us coming back to Gardens cafe.

 

 

kakak, Farah Dianti who turn 25 on the next day, 27th February 2011.

 

DARAH MANIS

kakak and her fiancé yang sangat comel bersama. both of them very funny bila duduk dekat-dekat keluar semua character yang pelik-pelik.

 

 

with AWESOME PEOPLE that makes the dinner awesome.

dialah Romie bukan Pujaan hatiku

dia bukan lelaki cool yang suka clubbing ataupun lelaki pakai baju ketat dengan nerdy specs. dia jugak belum pernah pecahkan mana-mana rekod Malaysia dalam apa-apa acara atau apa-apa. dia jugak bukan lelaki yang suka lepak hisap rokok ramai-ramai sambil bercerita pasal perempuan. tapi dia lah Ramadhan yang suka makan macam-macam. nama dia Ramadhan tapi dia nak dikenali sebagai Romie Pujaan dialam maya. gelinya ayat tuuu. anyway, Siapa sangka kitorang boleh kawan lama macam ni. i knew him since standard 3 but i have never liked him before. we were in the same class since standard 4 until form 3. lima belas tahun tolak sepuluh tahun , 5 tahun sama class kot! we became closer masa form 1 cause all my friends during primary were in different school and in that class we only know each other so we decided to sit next to each other. and masa kelas agama ustazah wanted us to sit separately but we refused. we share common things on people we do not like during school, we both love to sing so loudly in class lagu tak nak kalah masa tu; wajib lagu Mariah Carey-my all, we both love to annoy everyone in class and everyone hated both of us. HAHA. but that’s what makes us cool kids at time. booooo

on 2006, we both separated to a different classes. Romie went to science class and me in Prinsip Akaun class but he came over to my class almost everyday and sit next to me gossiping about everyone in his class cause he doesn’t like almost semua orang dalam kelas dia and so as the teachers. so cikgu-cikgu in my class pun tak boleh nak kata apa sebab we both choose not to listen to them . nak kenal romie? boleh tengok perangai sebenar dia kat sini. he wanted to be a singer. well, honestly i think he can actually sing tapi suka main-main.

kalau nak cerita pasal me and Ramadhan ni sampai esok pun tak habis and kitorang pernah cakap non stop for nearly 8 hours.

 

romie dah hensem *muntah

this kancil is my favourite

mocktails as mother approves

romie tak pandai ambik gambar.

 

simple birthday treat for me by Romie Pujaan @ Palate Pallette, Changkat Bukit Bintang and Restoran yang ada kapal @ Kampung Baru tapi takde gambar sebab semua dah penat.

 

he’s not the kind of friend yang kau boleh harap any sweet things or puji-puji come out from his big mouth tapi hati dia baik. he is honest and wise man, ridiculous at times tapi best.

ayat favourite dia: Biiitttcchhhh!!

ohh Ramadhan, aku still geram dengan kau bila kau hantar aku kat station Sri Petaling instead of Kelana Jaya last Sunday bitcchhhhh!!! nearly 40 mins stuck in the surroundings of keti-kepam-and-aku-sorang-je-orang-Malaysia-dalam-train to Masjid Jamek and instead of 45 minutes from KJ to Gombak, it took me 1 hour and 30 minutes to reach gombak. Demmmmiittt! dalam hati sumpah seranah kau tapi nasib kau dah belanja makan and Karaoke.

 

walaupun selalu geram dengan kau but i came to a conclusion that,  that’s what makes us great together. aku sayang kau Ramadhan walaupun kau selalu kejam dengan aku macam masa zaman dulu-dulu kau cakap dengan mak yang aku kena buang sekolah sebab aku selalu tak datang padahal benda takde pape pun, sumpah aku akan ingat tu sampai bila-bila. kau tahu tak?

 

ikhlas dari kawan yang tak pandai ambik hati dengan kau dan yang selalu confused birthday kau 2nd of April ke 4th of April, Azura.

NYYYYIIIIIIHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~

tak basi lagi

ahaha cerita pasal theater lagi. tak habis-habis. probably Wa, pembaca setia blog ni sudah nak muak dan jemu i bercerita pasal theater but these are the few pictures that i recently dapat. and all the memories during the theater are coming back. you see, this is my very first theater and i always get soo excited when i get to talk about this because not many want to listen to my crappy stories so whenever i got the chance to just let me lepas gian sikit eh.

this picture were taken during the final rehearsal before the actual play. I was freaking nervous as that was my very first appearance in public.

i pun dah lupa dah ni part yang mana.

this picture pulak were taken during the actual play. i was trying so hard to not think that there are few hundreds people been watching our play. i was actually kinda sad during the play because i really felt the sadness of the character.

this scene supposedly wanting me to be sad because i was telling the ‘Mr bank Manager’ that my husbandss died and that’s why i need the loan but this is the only part of the story that i cant feel the sadness because i actually find it quite funny, i just dont know why.

 

 

it was a short experience that requires lifetime to forget about it. :)

thank you Allah, thank you everyone who have been supporting me, thank you Jijol for coming. i saw you from behind the curtain on stage before the play and that’s what gave me the courage to do the best for that day because i want to you to be proud to have me as your sister for once in your life. i hope i made it.

the girl who has everything

sometimes i do feel like people don’t listen to me but when i think back i think its fair enough cause i don’t listen to anyone. when people want to start their drama with me i’ll just walk away. nobody likes to be involved in drama isn’t it. especially at this age, when you are 21 you are no longer the same person of who you are before. you may be physically the same but you are totally different inside.

abah and few other people told me to walk with my eyes open, i’m completely normal that when i walk i have my eyes open but like i always said see thing from different perspectives. listen to the people, listen to the surroundings and listen to the heart beat of the people. 

when i’m down, i write. i’m not a good writer. i wished i can write my heart out but what refrain me from doing so that is i’m afraid i might hurt people around me. i do not want to be hurt anymore so that is the least i can do by not writing about them and although i dont really tell what are the things that upsets me because i do not want to have the same exact feelings i felt inside when i go through my blog posts. i like to be me and i want to improve to be a better me. i want to be a good listener to people around me but everytime i try to be, my heart wont let me. my heart keep telling me, stop doing. despite of the ugliness of being involved in drama, tak kisah la drama dengan mak, abah, my siblings, my friends, or anyone near me there are good things being involved in real drama. you get to deal with stubborn people who think they are always right *finger pointing at myself*.

yes, i always think i am always right in most situations. so what? who likes to be wrong anyway? there are ways to correct people like me *please make your own reading* there tons of books on how to deal with people like me. obviously i wont listen to you when you simply tell me i’m wrong. without solid arguments and phrases like ‘janganlah buat macam tu’, ‘jangan la cakap macam tu’, ‘kau rasa kau bagus sangat ke?’ wont make any difference in me. infact, i felt lagi superior inside when you say such things cause its just showing lacking of facts to argue about. like i said there are ways to correct such people like me. its not that hard if you know the way and its not that easy anyway. if you do not like what you read then you are being denial. i think almost everyone face the same thing isn’t it? no body likes to be corrected all time as if orang yang betulkan dia tu perfect sangat.

speaking about perfection, i’m not that perfectionist but i like things to go my way. ahh what i wrote here basically reflects almost everyone’s attitude too. if you try to see yourself and look into yourself deeply, you may find that i’m just like you. i am no different with other people but what makes me different from other people is when we started to be friends. i always warned people not to be too nice with me cause i wont be too nice to them. but i will not have any prejudice or anything like that towards other people but i just do not want people to be too nice to me. its scare me. its scare me because i know i can never be too nice to anyone.

i no longer care if i heard people talking about me or says that they don’t like me for whatever reasons in the world that they can ever think of. its just makes me wanna go to tandas dengan lebih kerap, bukan untuk menangis dalam toilet tapi pergi buang sisa toksik yang dah lebih sangat dalam badan.

bye

Berakhir sudah Februari

bila dah 21 tahun barulah dapat jumpa cinta baru. jangan salah faham. I still sayang youu cuma i baru jumpa satu kepuasan yang tak boleh nak describe with words. i had so much fun knowing Wani, Faiq, Bob and Epul, Ringgo and Pojie. production pun kecik je. A Small Business Loan written by Prof. Dato’. Dr. Ghulam Sarwar, had made us all one family. Wani did a vey good job when she managed to translate the monologue written by Pojie the night before the show less than an hour. She is so damn talented budak kecik. haha. oh yeah, she is soo petite but with huge brain seriously, you see Pojie wrote a monologue in Malay less than an hour and she can translate it within the same period of time. sumpah best! and I.. I totally envy her when she got to eat semua benda yet still remain kecik as she is.

I never thought that I will ever have the courage to speak in front of hundreds people. It was a great experienced to get involve with theater. Infact, I learn to see new things and experience so many things but the TAK BEST PART is I still cannot manage to control my anger when things doesn’t go my way. I’m a cry baby during theater. ahhh I cry for almost everything.

Alhamdulillah, syukur sangat sebab teaterlah dapat jumpa amazing people yang sentiasa discharge positive energy dekat orang-orang sekeliling. Rindu sangaaat theater week pun dah habis so everything is now back to normal. my usual routines; normal, the dull same route to class everyday.

anyway, siapa sangka sebab teater i boleh bangun pagi although tidur pukul 4 pagi and siapa sangkaaa wehhh yang i boleh je relax jalan pkul 2 pagi dari Rector Building sampai Mahallah Safiyyah sorang-sorang beb! aaaaaaaaaaaannndd siapa sangka pasal teater i boleh selamba mandi pukul 2-3 pagi kat toilet Mahallah. ahh i didn’t know that i am that berani.

pictures taken dari waktu practice sampailah rehearsal, then the ‘big night’ and makan time after the play is over.