Empty

I feel so empty,
Like there's no more lights in the city,

I feel so empty,
Until the shadows wouldn't come by me,

I feel so empty,
My heart can hardly breath,

I feel so empty,
I wish I could be running free,
Cause life have never been easy,
Running away seem the best possible be,

What is it left for me?


Dushkuat

It's going to be a delicately rough phase

I am going to finish my degree soon.  Can’t believe that I actually will be surviving 4 years of ups and downs, sweats and tears in studies, friendship and some other stuff related to studying soon!  I cannot wait to be free again.

here's a story about today,

Earlier this morning, I received a phone call regarding my internship placement. I was extremely down sebab ada this one organization rejected my application due to no more vacancies available for interns sbb hantar application lambat. I was quite desperate actually because I’m running out of time to report to my lecturer regarding my internship placement. I kept on avoiding my lecturer everytime he wanted to see me.

 Lepas dapat news kena reject lagi la kan, and so since I was deperate, I called another organization ni to make a follow up. Lagi sedih bila dapat tau rupanya the email I sent her for the past few days tak masuk dalam inbox dia rupanya. Cepat-cepat bukak laptop hantar sekali lagi. After about 10 to 15 minutes tiba-tiba dapat email notification. Nervous gila nak bukak, i couldn't afford to have another rejection in one day. sekali.... Wohooo lega! Well, I guess whoever yang apply for that organization surely dapat sebab diorang ni NGO so they prefer interns and voluntarily-based employee. So that lucky organization who’s going  to have me as part of their organization is MERCY Malaysia yaw! Well, I was at the extreme edge of sadness but the next thing I know, I am back on the top!

Therefore, I am really looking forward for June to start my intern and… got to start peningkan diri about my wedding preparation!

Tu lah, nak kahwin right after graduation so kena la biasakan diri multi-tasking kan!

Wedding Checklist (Major things to think about)

1.       Venue

a.       Nikah  : Masjid Al Falah, USJ 9 (proposed place sahaja, I have yet to meet the PIC to get the confirmation)

b.      Reception: Done (Deposit Paid, so consider done and got to start pening about the money to pay the balance L)

2.       Attire

a.       Nikah:  Bride  (done), groom (done)

b.      Reception: Bride (done)

3.       Theme

a.       Nikah: takde tema for both sides

b.      Reception: Mint Green + Off White

Hantaran semua tu later la, too lazy to write about it but we have already bought some. Berdebar je everytime tengok hantaran tu.

I cannot believe myself either nak kahwin this early!

Nope, mak and abah has never said anything about suruh kahwin ke apa and neither his family too. Things just happened which I believed happened for a reason. Well, of course I’m excited! I just don’t know what is the appropriate reaction I should deliver.

Will definitely mumble about my wedding preparation but I have no fantasies about my wedding day yet! Lol!!

see you soon Kitties!